After a long discussion with John, I made the decision to decline the receptionist position at the yoga studio. Yes, it would have been amazing, but the majority of the income I made would have gone towards paying for childcare and that didn't make sense combined with how much I'd be away from them at dinner and bedtime. As I declined yet another job, I was reminded of the story The Man in the Flood:
The man is caught in a flood and as the flood waters rose, his neighbors told him: "You have to leave, the flood is going to wash everything away."
Calmly, the man replied, "It's not a problem, God will save me!"
As the waters rose to the 2nd floor of his house, some rescuers came by on a boat. They tell him, "Get in! The flood is going wash you away!"
Yet again, he calmly says, "It's not a problem, God will save me!"
The waters rise to his roof and a helicopter comes by. They tell him to grab the rope or he will be washed away. He again declines and says, "It's not a problem, God will save me!"
Finally, the flood washed everything away and the man drowned.
When he approached heaven, he saw God. The first thing he asked was, "Lord, I was so certain you would save me. What happened?"
Perplexed, God said, "I just don't know. I sent neighbors, a boat, AND a helicopter for you!"
I feel like I'm being handed these fabulous jobs and turning them down for perceived problems. After I got off the phone today, I was picturing God shaking his head with his arms crossed, muttering, "What a nincompoop!"
It's been two months since I turned down the library job and I STILL kick myself over it, although I haven't had any great ideas as to how we would have made the on-call thing work. I'm pretty sure I'll be kicking myself over this one for a while too.
John graduates at the end of the month. He has two weeks of classes, then one week of finals and then we are done. And then I will start school either for the summer term or the fall (we need a little break from classes for a while!). I'm sure I'll finally feel like I'm doing something good for myself once I get started on school. I just wish I knew if I was really doing the right thing by turning these jobs down or if I'm being a complete idiot.
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