Another hospital visit; still no baby.

After being woken up by painful contractions and thinking that it might be labor really starting, everything stopped and I was sleep deprived. We actually made it to church though and I was fortunate enough to be prayed over concerning this baby. We decided to hang out at Dwight and Karla's for a while, mainly for change of scenery, and while we were there my contractions really got going and were very intense. This went on ALL afternoon. I wasn't convinced it was anything but more teasing from my unborn child, so it took 4 hours for me to be persuaded into calling the midwife. I was told I was welcome to come in, but it was probably OK for me to wait it out a little longer. Wanting to just know already, we decided to head to the hospital to be monitored. I contracted on the way there, walking into the hospital, walking into the triage room.....but as soon as that monitor hit me, I had one big contraction and it all stopped.
Needless to say, it was very frustrating and I really hate looking like one of those women who can't tell when she's in labor. So we left and came home.

I'm exhausted and am now trying to convince myself that I am not going back to that hospital until it is EXTREMELY obvious that I'm in labor (or my water has broken). I suppose this child will be born when he's ready, which I am told will be for sure in the next 2 weeks. However, after everything I've been put through already, I am quickly losing confidence in the fact that I won't be pregnant forever. I guess it's true. I just wouldn't be able to say it to your face with absolute honesty. Since we've been home, I've been contracting every 15 minutes or so. Maybe my baby just has stage fright. Oh well. Unless something happens very soon, it looks like he really will be a January baby.

Why is this not happening?

I'm stuck! We're still waiting on this little guy to decide to come out. I'm basically the exact same that I was Thursday night. The contractions are extremely painful (in fact, I think they've gotten more painful as time goes on) and I have to breathe through them. But they're just not quite close enough together to need to go back to the hospital. I've been walking, doing heavy housework, anything to get this jumpstarted. It doesn't seem to be making a difference. I'm really on the verge of tears right now because I'm so frustrated. I don't quite understand how things can look so close to going into full-out active labor and then not get any further. I know my due date isn't for about 2 more weeks, but it's pretty obvious that my body is trying to go. But for some reason, it just isn't making it very far. So I'm going to stop trying to make it go and just go about my day today. Hopefully I'll have something exciting to write about soon!

Still waiting

Well, things didn't come to a screeching halt as I expected, but they weren't as full-blown as they really needed to be. We were basically told that it could jump start itself at any minute, so go home and wait. So we're waiting. Things still seem to be working towards hardcore labor, but are stopping just short of it. The contractions are actually further apart than they were earlier today, but are MUCH more painful. Painful enough that I can't walk through them, but I still feel able to handle them, so I'd prefer to stay home for now. Aiden is at grandma's for the night, just in case. Being right on the edge like this is very frustrating, but at least it does appear that progress is being made - just not as quickly as I'd like.

Going in!

I'm waiting for John to get home so we can head over to the hospital. I'm still a little wary of getting excited over this, because I'm absolutely convinced it will all come to a screeching halt once I get there. Hopefully though, we'll have a new baby in our arms by the end of the day!